[ for guys ]
when you are in a relationship
you should not flirt around with other girls.
yes, you may say she's your friend, sis....
but once you get close to her,
you will tend forget the girl that you are with.
you should also not to contact any other girls
unless it's about school/ work stuff.
you should understand how a girl feels.
how they feel when you do this or that.
think twice before you do anything.
a girls heart is like a glass.
once it breaks, there's no way for you to fix it back.
you must also know what is right and wrong to talk about.
if you were to say something wrong,
all the best of luck to you to find the solution of the matter.
because girls are very very sensitive.



[ for girls ]
you must also know how to take care of each other heart.
guys are not easy to handle.
cos they will have all kind of excuses for whatever they do
but not all guys are the same.
some guys are difficult to find.
these kind of guy knows how to take care your feelings
and also understand you.
these guy their heart is like a diamond.
its hard to find the "PERFECT" guy in this world.
make sure you find a guy who DON'T act tough in front of you.
you can never have a long relationship with him.
find a guy who is really sincere with you.
know how to take care of them cos they can be sensitive too.




never go into a relationship when you are not ready for all the SACRIFICES.
it just a waste of time.
once you have problems between both of you,
calm down and settle things.
don't keep running away from the problem.
guys if you cry that doesn't mean you are pondan or what.
it shows how much you care and love that person.
and how important that person is to you.
girls please take note.






[ Saifuddin is trying to be the person that he want to be and to make things right ]

i'm alive! hahah.
finally after soo long i am going to post.

GOOD NEWS!
O level IS OVER!!
not counting MT AND SCIENCE P1!
damn happy but plus sad.
you know why right dear?
(:
like you said i've try my best.
thanks dear for helping me out
with my preparation for O levels.
(: THANK YOU !

now i'm waiting for confirmation about CI course.
can't wait for that man!
woohoo!!!

most importantly,
i have been very happy with my dear.
soon we will get to know each other better.
if you know what i mean.
going to fetch her soon
and help her out with OUR house model.
(:

this is what i gonna post post now.



" there always gonna be another moutain
i'm always wanna make it move
always gonna be in uphill battle
sometime i gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast i get there
ain't about what await on the other side


IT'S THE CLIMB "


it isn't matter whether you pass or fail,
its all about the EFFORT that you put in!




[Saifuddin has ried his best. ]

why can't i just stop crying !
WHY !

why i cried?
why?

why am i like this?
why?

why do i feel lonely again?
why?

why do i kept looking down on myself?
why?

why don't i feel i'm being love anymore?
why?

why must this happened to me?
why?

why must i always be hurt?
why?

why can't i be like the others?
why?

why can't i have a happy life?
why?

why can't i stand up myself?
why?


i really don't wish to know already.
all i want now is you.
please don't treat me this way.
i'm hurt.
i'm hiding this from everyone beacuse i don't want them to know.
am i not a human?
don't i have heart and feelings?
don't beacuse of THAT problem,
you want it to affect our relationship.
please.


there no use crying now.
no one is helping me.
just live in your own wolrd where i am all alone.
sit there and do nothing.
let the darkness fill my soul till the light comes back.
be prepare to suffer more in time to come.
remember i am alone for now.
i may leave a scar damn deep that it days months to heal.
i shall just leave things the way it is.


[saifuddin: this is the end of me. you won't be hearing anything from me anymore. this blog is dead like the person. hopefully the moon can brighter up my day. i shall rest in peace.]

Whatever going to happened to me let it be.
i won't be myself.
i will just ignore all the things that happening around me.
i don't know whether i have ever listein to anyone before.
if i did, i don't think it sunk in into my brain cells.
problem keep on appearing after the other one gone.

no mood for anything now.
no mood for study? fail then.
no mood for hari raya? don't celebrate then.
no mood for everything? DON'T LIVE THEN !

my life have gone from bad to rotten.
keep on having problem.
keep on crying.
keep on emo-ing.
keep on punching walls.
keep on being tired.

haix.
now leave with the listeining part.
didn't i listein to everything being said?
didn't i do whatever been instructed?
didn't i try my soul out in studying no matter how late i start?
didn't i put in all my effort into studying and wanting to go well?
if i never do all these, i have admit it already.
i'm honest here.

RESPECT?
what is respect and how you earn respect?
ya. no doubt that you must be respected,
but you are doing it all wrong.
why?
when ask for money to buy food, what your replied?
oh. ok.
but it's only words no action being made.
when people tells you that's wrong, what did you say?
i know what i am doing.
people SHOW you respect and this is HOW YOU respect people.


ARRR!!!
no use saying all this when no one believe me.
all they know i'm at fault.
i done all the wrong things.
i always think i'm right.
never think what other feels or thinks about me.


what i can comment about that is that is all lies.
i do CARE, THINK AND FEELS ABOUT OTHER !
I'M NOT A HEARTLESS PERSON.
I ALWAYS THINK OUT OF THE BOX, THINK ABOUT THE CONSEQUENCESES ABOUT THE ACTION I DO AND TAKE AND I CARE ABOUT OTHERS !

i don't think i will be updating anymore.
soo just take care of yourself.
be happy.


[Saifuddin shall let his life be control from now on. he shall live like this till he's married and won't be causing any problem.]

a mistake made will always leave a scar. it may leave a deep or a slight cut. hard to forget the pain than the sorrow.



i need you to get back the saifuudin you once knew.
he is now weak and stand can't stand.
now, all he need is you.
he need you to courage him even if it's hard to handle.
you mean everything to him.
he needs your support and guidians.
you are the most important person to him.
he only listein to you.
no one else can change him.
please i beg you,
bring him back no matter what it take.












[saifuddin is not himself.]

i shall blog now !
hahah.
okay.
where should i start ?
okay.
last friday, i went to clementi to send her off.
as usual, CAMP.
hahah.
yup. we had our 'buka' outside at Mac with cassandra.
ya.

so that day,
i had my lonely trip back to hougang.
lonely like last time.
but later that night me msg me just to say
'dear. good night. i love you. (: '


so yesterday,
went to 'buka' at my unlce house.
ya.
nothig much to talk about that.
after that, we went to IKEA.
just looking at stuff and the prices.
I AM EYEING FOR THAT SOFT MATTRESS !
hahah.
then when GIANTS !
but half way shopping, i received msg from her !
hahah !
she was tired so we didn't talk much.
i don't mind.
what matters the most is that she is safe.
reached home around 0030
tried to get internet connection but failed.
soo fell asleep.
wake up around 0323
around 0432
she msged me.
happy like what sia.
hahah.
talk talk talk.
and she went to sleep.

so now i got internet access.
so i start to blog.
anyway i got only 3 hours of sleep.
plus yesterday slept at 0345.
and wake up at 0714.



i can't wait to see her.
gonna listein to whatever she say
but i will be looking at her.
why?
hmm...
hahah.
ya.



[ Saifuddin can't wait to put his arm around his girl ! (: ]

WHAT'S THE HELL WRONG WITH YOU!!!
ARE YOU INSANE?!!!!

i pity the party that you hurt and insulted at.
hello!!!
you think you big SIZE i SCARED of you??
dream on lar MAT!!!

i thought in front of others, you could at least mind your language all that.
BUT YOU PROVED ME WRONG!
you are lifeless and heartless.
how can you treat your siblings like that!
so what if you are the elders?
you can bully them all you want but...
KICKING THEM?
PUSHING THEM?
PUNCHING THEM?
WORSE OF ALL
CALL THEM STUPID DOG INFRONT OF GUEST!!!
EH!!!
YOUR SIBLINGS GOT HEARTS, FEELINGS AND DIGNITY!!

I DON'T WISH TO BE SOO MEAN TO YOU AND I DON'T WISH TO
COMPARE YOU WITH SOMETHING.
THE WAY YOU TALK TO YOUR MUM ALL THAT
IT'S LIKE YOU ARE JUST NOT SHOWING HER RESPECT.
I REALLY GOT NOTHING TO SAY LAR.
BUT IF YOU WE TO HARM YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS,
I DON'T CARE YOU ARE YOU OR HOW BIG YOU ARE.
I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN TILL YOU WAKE UP
AND REALISE YOUR MISTAKE!
I SWEAR UPON MY OWN SOUL ABOUT THIS.



YOU DON'T KNOW ME THAT WELL YET.
HAHAH.
IF THAT DAY COME THAT I HAVE TO HUNT YOU,
BE PREPARE TO GO TO HELL WITH ME!!!




[SAIFUDDIN IS PISSED AND MAN OF HIS WORD!]